My Plan vs Gods plan

In order to understand this post you will need to read the Post "All about Lizzie."

All summer I have been on interviews and job hunting. I want a teaching job and I thought that I have to have a job this year. I do not want to stay at home! I even said if I did not get a teaching job I would do something else. I applied to pretty much everything and anything I could think of. All I could think of is how will we survive without the income and how I am not cut out to be a stay at home mom (sahm). Well today is the first day of school for everyone and here I am sitting here writing a blog. Yes I have been jealous of my teacher friends but  instead of being angry, jealous, or bitter I just pray they are having a wonderful day. I look around at my messy house, dirty clothes all over the house, a sweet baby sitting in my lap and a three year old boy running crazy! I am so blessed to have these babies and this messy house and all the toys that make this house a mess. The truth is that GOD has a plan for my life and my family's life. Since we are waiting on Lizzie to be referred to a neurologist and not knowing how many doctor visits she will be going too it might be best I am not working because I need to be with her. MY FAMILY COMES FIRST! I need to be with her and making sure she is taken care of. I have also learned I can be a sahm, I can have fun with my babies while not leaving the house going to spend money everyday. God is telling me I need to chill out and that is what I am going to do. Another year subbing at schools, getting my foot in the door, and gaining experience. So while I do not understand the plan and get impatient waiting to figure out my life, I need to learn to just go with it. My plan will work when I let go and allow God's plan to unfold. It is not easy and so frustrating but it is life. I have too much to be thankful for to dwell on the one thing I don't have!

Its ALL ABOUT LIZZIE!!!

The first four weeks of Lizzie being here was perfect! I had my little family and she is such a good baby. Noah is getting use to her and loving her so much. It melts my heart to see these babies together.

About four weeks old Lizzie started "waking up." She was starting to stay awake longer and very alert. She also started to have seizure like episodes. She would jerk in quick movements, her eyes would roll back in her head, her mouth and chin would make quiver movements. At first I just thought it was baby jerks and it was normal. When people would ask "What is she doing?" I would reply with "I'm not sure just newborn baby things." I thought that is what it was. I would sometimes think that they look like seizures but quickly dismiss the thought because it would not last long. When she was five weeks we went to a wedding for Katie Crooks.

Katelyn Sellers and Lizzie at the wedding! Look at that baby she looks perfect! Well at the wedding many people were holding her and the jerking started. All the "mommy's" told me this was not normal and we needed to take her to the ER. We went to the ER but since it was the weekend and she had stopped having episodes there was not much they could do. We went home and saw the pediatrician on Monday! I love our Pediatrician because he is pretty laid back and doesn't worry about much. I thought he would tell us we were over reacting and she was fine. Well I was totally WRONG!! He was very worried about this and immediately sent us to have an EEG on her brain. The plan was to have an EEG and if the results were normal and she stopped having the seizures. We would rule it as a fluke and go on with life. If Lizzie keeps having them we will need to see a neurologist.

 

 







 It took two VERY LONG weeks to get her results back! With lots and lots of prayer the results came back normal! AND she did not have any episodes during that time! On the third week she had another seizure episode. Really! It has been THREE weeks! We went to her two month checkup and I told the doctor. He immediately sent a referral to the neurologist. We are now having to wait for an appointment and that takes along time to get. I HATE waiting! I do feel better waiting for the appointment because the results of the EEG normal. We are logging when she has them and how long it lasts and trying our best to record one. Mom tried to record the one on Wednesday but she forgot to hit the record button. haha
You may ask what might cause the seizures and from what we think they are infant seizures and they are caused from low birth weight, preemies, and cord wrapped around the neck at birth. Lizzie had all the above. They will most likely go away by the time she is one year. There is not history of epilepsy seizures in my family or Craig's (that we know of). As we wait on these next appointments please be in prayer for my precious little family!
Thank you we love you all!