My Plan vs Gods plan

In order to understand this post you will need to read the Post "All about Lizzie."

All summer I have been on interviews and job hunting. I want a teaching job and I thought that I have to have a job this year. I do not want to stay at home! I even said if I did not get a teaching job I would do something else. I applied to pretty much everything and anything I could think of. All I could think of is how will we survive without the income and how I am not cut out to be a stay at home mom (sahm). Well today is the first day of school for everyone and here I am sitting here writing a blog. Yes I have been jealous of my teacher friends but  instead of being angry, jealous, or bitter I just pray they are having a wonderful day. I look around at my messy house, dirty clothes all over the house, a sweet baby sitting in my lap and a three year old boy running crazy! I am so blessed to have these babies and this messy house and all the toys that make this house a mess. The truth is that GOD has a plan for my life and my family's life. Since we are waiting on Lizzie to be referred to a neurologist and not knowing how many doctor visits she will be going too it might be best I am not working because I need to be with her. MY FAMILY COMES FIRST! I need to be with her and making sure she is taken care of. I have also learned I can be a sahm, I can have fun with my babies while not leaving the house going to spend money everyday. God is telling me I need to chill out and that is what I am going to do. Another year subbing at schools, getting my foot in the door, and gaining experience. So while I do not understand the plan and get impatient waiting to figure out my life, I need to learn to just go with it. My plan will work when I let go and allow God's plan to unfold. It is not easy and so frustrating but it is life. I have too much to be thankful for to dwell on the one thing I don't have!